Many years ago I turned down the offer of some dahlia roots on learning they would need to be staked and also should be lifted at the end
of the season and stored in the cellar to be replanted the next year. It seemed
like an awful lot of work for a flower that, while showy, sometimes reminded me
of faded plastic flowers on roadside memorials. And over the years, as I tried
(and failed) to establish plantings of delphiniums, calla lilies, poppies, and
many others, there was something satisfying about holding to that tenet: I
don’t do dahlias. It freed me up to lust after improbabilities like Himalayan
blue poppies. (a still unfulfilled
lust.)
I don’t do dahlias. Or makeup.
For a very long time I haven’t done makeup beyond, if I’m
going out, a dab of powder on my shiny red nose or an inept pass with an
eyebrow pencil over my fading eyebrows. In my late teens and for most of my
twenties, I did the whole number: foundation, powder, eyeshadow, mascara,
lipstick. It took a long time. But it was the custom of the time and place. Without
makeup, I felt naked. “Putting on my face,” I’ve heard women call the makeup
routine. Now, were I to try it, I’m pretty sure it would feel as unreal as clown
makeup.
I don’t do makeup. Or religion.
I went from Methodist Sunday School unquestioning belief to Episcopalian confirmation classes to study of world religions. Along the way I became increasingly and uncomfortably aware of the harm done by religion/blind faith. Speaking of Christianity alone, start with the Crusades and the Inquisition and go on to the Indian Schools and Magdalene Homes, not to mention the support for slavery in some churches. Uncomfortable but at the same time I came to a realization that I no longer truly believed in any of it. It was freeing.
I’d like to add news and politics to that list of things I don’t do, but I believe that keeping up with this is important for the survival of, well, everything. But I’m sure if I try, I can find more things not to do.
